| • | April - 2006
Hi Rhonda,
I just wanted to try a time line. I took Billie Jo to the movies today. I am preparing for a big job. I am keeping up with laundry and dishes everyday so far this week. I am trying to mange the bills. I have no ide how you did it. Our bowling ended this week. we came in last palce. But that is only because you were not there. Many people missed you and said they were srry for all our family went thru. My pity party is going all week. I think I will wind it down for Sunday. I will stop by and see you soon. I love you and had a wonderful dream about you the other night. You were smiling and hugged me with the warm hugs I miss so much. I am feeling pretty lonely. Every one I know is married or a least a couple. I have not found any one to talk to yet. I need some one whom is going thru this type of thing. I did go to a group meeting in church in Ffred. Every one there were widows and wodowers. they were very nice people. But they were all senior citiziens. I enjoyed meeting them. But I don't reall fit in. Well I amrunning on. Please know I love you and I miss you. It is hard to believe that I am never going to feel the love we had again. The best one could ever have. I should be thankful for the time we had together. But I wanted more tiem. It maks me so sad and lonely. You build your whole adult life building a partnership to grow old with. You pour out every ounce of your self and then one day your wonderfull partner is gone. LOVE YOU!! You husband Billy
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